i know she loves the sunshine. ♥

can we forget about the things i said.. when i was DRUNK

Sun, 18 Dec 2005 01:04:22 GMT

okay im writing in this again
for a couple of reasons
1 being that im bored
2 i need to get my thoughts out
3 its time consuming

well, this christmas break has sucked so far
me and my stepmom erica have been fighting ALOT
she is like a cop at my house, always on my case.
anything i do she is right behind me to tell me
that i did something wrong or w/e
and then i threw a paper plate in the trash
that had chip dip on it & she flipped out
because the dip got on the garbage can? yeah. psycho.
she called my dad and told him to come home
because i am just "uncontrollable" riiight
and then my dad told me i had 3 options
i live with them and accept all the bullshit they put me thru
i move away to a boarding school
i go live with my mom
so i chose to go live with my mom
i packed everything up, with erica watching outside the door
then my mom came and got me
it really pisses me off that my dad CONSTANTLY
chooses my stepmom over his own daughter
he thinksshe isome kind of God, when really shes just a coniving bitch.

i was suppose to go to jimmys toga party last night
but i wasnt feeling up to partying
and today i have done nothing but eat & watch tv
L A Z Y Y Y Y Y Y
my stomach is KILLING me
so i didnt go out tonight to max's either
but its so gross and rainy outside so w/e

uh i am so tired of feeling like crap
i want to go out & get CRUnk
after all, its christmas break wtf!
im also so excited because CALI is coming up in a week!
finally get away from stupid jacksonville

the boy situation is okay
lots of boys want to hangout
but this whole sick thing is killing me
i love eing single
and having all these boys to talk to
and hangout with its quite fun

im pissed because my dad hasnt called
he calls me atleast once a day
im shure he's prob. relieved im gone
asshole.

long time no talk

Mon, 28 Nov 2005 01:59:26 GMT

so i havent wrote in this thing in basically forever
because it was getting really extremely lame
but i need to vent so i figure wth i'll write in this

this is what i've been up to..

tuesday:
school was lame ofcourse.
went to dinner w/paige danielle & allison.
went to the basketball game. lost by like 20 points.
geni took me back to samanthas until she got off work.
then me & sammy came back to my house & pigged out & watched tv.

wednesday:
skipped school cause were cool.
hung out at max's all day, then jenks.
went to the soccer game for max w/everyone

thanksgiving:
LAME THATS ALL I HAVE TO SAY.
bonfire @ night, smelt like smoke crucially.
danced on taylors truck w/sammy HAHAH.
got a call saying basically all of my bestfriends were in a wreck.
hauled ass up to the place where they were
for basically the most horrible thing ive ever seen
then hauled ass to the hospital
then my mom was freaking out & came & got me from the hospital

friday:
worked 10-7 & it was complete hell.
our credit card thingy wasnt working
we had to call every credit card in AHHHH
went over to sam's after work
got TACO BELL (i had been craving it forEVER)
then got whit the kutest bear from walgreens
dOODLebEAR! & we wrote all this stuff on it :o)
hung out w/gen erin whit jamie & sam @ whitney's

saturday:
went to work @ 1, when i was spose to be there @ 12
but my manager loves me so it didnt matter
was spose to go w/all the girls to the landing
but that didnt work out, long story
so i went to target w/my mom
&& got the KUTEST little snow boot things EVER
im seriously obsessed with them
then i get a call from bryan (talk about random!)
i havent talked to him in over a week
i didnt answer the call because i.. didnt want to talk to him
it was so weird seeing his # on my phone i was like WTF
then went & saw just friends with my mom
came home & bryan called again so this time i answered
he SAYS he was calling because he heard i was a pothead
and that i have sex with max all the time..
so that definetly made me laugh a little.
told him no & then hung up.
then he called back again & it was just really awkward
and i didnt want to be on the phone with him
because it just makes everything complicated i dont know
i would just rather not talk to him at all
lifes alot easier without him i guess, actually it is.
so from now on im def. not answering his calls.

today:
slept till 1, thats how stressed i am
i never sleep that late
then i was suppose to go get a christmas tree w.max
but i didnt get ready in time
so then i went & got lunch w.my mom @ the mall
&& PAIGE came to see me, i miss that hoe.
then went shopping & then ran into geni
who told me that my bestfriend is in the hospital
and then i got really stressed & was freaking out
but i did buy some super cute camo bed pants from quiksilver!
which im wearing right now

i dont know why im so stressed
i guess its cause i have had alot of bad news lately
and bryan calling really pissed me off.

well i gotta go, desp.housewives is coming on.

comment or something, dont be lame.

later.♥

licky licky licky.. like a peppermint swirl

Wed, 24 Aug 2005 23:46:25 GMT

so ive been busy lately
and havent updated in over a week
but whatever i dont care

today paige picked me & sarah up from my house
then we went over to heathers && then
met all the girls for breakfast @ village inn
there was like about 20 of us. AHHH
and yeah, the waitress wanted to strangle us
so then we all went to whitneys &&
then me dani paige sarah & jamie went back to school
skipped first period because.. it was stupid to go
so then went to second and colored in my planner woo hoo
bryan took me home && we hung out
then went to the mall && i got some kute shit

my feelings towards alot of things are changing
i think they are anyways..
its like, hard to explain or even think about
sometimes i feel like i need to let go of certain things
but then i think of all the reasons i've held on this long.
its really.. weird i dont know.. blah

anyways i need to get wasted.
this weekend has been stressful.

heres some pictures..

sneak away for a couple of hours..

Sun, 14 Aug 2005 16:40:32 GMT

what it is bitches

this weekend has been pretty good
because i havent had to WORK woo hoo
went out to dinner with my daddy
friday night went to the mall with paige
then was going to go over to some kids aarons
and meet up with ali pee. but it got broke up
so then i went to kyle hardings instead
got there & geni,jamie,kelly d,chelsea were there
so just hung out for a while
then TAP laura ky & sarah got there yayyyy
then everyone was startin to get in the pool
so i opted out of that && decided to head home

then saturday morning bryan came over to pick me over
got in the car to go to his pictures
and he has directions that his dad gave him
and i have directions that i got from mapquest
so he picks his dads directions over mine, which were wrong
so then we use MY directions which were RIGHT
got there & mark was there.
then after we left there went out to lunch at ale house
then went to the mall for a little
then came back to my moms house
made tacos for dinner && a cake, which fell apart.
&& we watched orange county, funniest movie ever.

i had a call in for work this morning
but i didnt have to go in
so i think im just gonna go out to eat with my mom
&& then play the rest of the day by year..
i need to go get a pedicure. that sounds really good.

heres some pictures.

thats my little brother, carter.

me && bryan smoked him out. lol

bryan trying to help him out, hes passed the fuck out lol.

awe look at those kuties.

when life gives me lemons, i make BEEF STEW!

Fri, 12 Aug 2005 00:16:55 GMT

so school has definetly gotten ALOT better.
which is most definetly a good thing because
i cant stress to you how bad it was at first
i guess im use to it now. i dont know.
bryan took me home yesterday && we got mcdonalds
$.39 cheeseburger wednesdays! holler.
then went back to my house && did our homework.
it was so kute i loved it hahah.
then went out to dinner with my mom @ the loop.
then went to blockbuster && the grocery.
&& OH YEAH I DROVE :o) which bryan HATES.

oh yeah guys. guess what after i get my paycheck friday.
i get to get my license FINALLY. yep, i finally get my CAR!
&& kelly g. said since she bought a parking pass from someone
when she gets her real one, she said i can use it till i get mine!
talk about sweeeeeet. im excited. cause she is like 30 on the list.
and im finally ungrounded since school started
talk about a blessing from above. i need to get crunk okay.
i think i have to work tommorow night though, maybe not though.
i gotta admit, i dont want to. but i DO need the hours.

saturday im going with bryan to his senior pictures
&& were spending the whole day together :o) im excited.
&& then ofcourse i have to work sunday. so no fun that day.

we went to class just to pass the time..-kc

Mon, 08 Aug 2005 21:55:22 GMT

first of all i would just like to stress to everyone
how much i HATE SCHOOL. seriously i do.
actually i dont think its SCHOOL in itself.
its just like.. everyone there lol
mandarin has seriously way too many kids.
you can not even walk thru the halls without being
bombarded by hundreds seriously HUNDREDS of kids everywhere
walking slow or pushing or running wild.
its CHAOTIC.. and personally, im already tired of it.
4000+ kids in one school is WAYYYYY TOO MUCH.

i couldnt sleep last night.
i kept waking up like every hour or two
and then i woke up again at 530..
and couldnt fall back asleep so i just woke up
got ready && shit && i was so excited
because i hadnt done my hair since the hairlady did it
&& i actually did a good job. i can never do it as good as her.
kudos to me. kudos to me. but ofcourse it didnt last long.
as soon as i step out of my house, my hair frizzed. to a new extreme.
I HATE FLORIDA WEATHER I SWEAR TO YOU.
mother nature must have her head on wrong or something.
because weather SUCCCCCCCCCKS.

so yeah i get to school && i see kelly && amber
so i go talk to them and kelly tells me she got hit by a bus
the side of her car is like. fucked. i felt so bad.
but its definetly a funny story she can tell everyone lol.

went to homeroom, which was gay.
1st period, kristen && me went to the wrong room.
so we had to run behind the school where the dumpsters are
to get to class on time. it was ridiculous.
i gotta admit it though, i told her to go to the wrong hall lol.
2nd was straight, got out of class for like 30 minutes
me && danielle went to go get "books" which ofcourse i didnt
3rd i have with jj sarah && chelsea its pretty fun
my teacher is a mix between a pirate/crack head/gay guy
its really quite interesting. seriously. lol
oh okay heres where i start to get pissed off.
i didnt eat dinner last night (had to work till late, no time.)
&& didnt have breakfast this morning either
&& i have d lunch so i eat last ofcourse
&& i get to the freakin cafeteria and there is NOTHING to eat
except for stale nachos && gross pizza
not to mention, the drink machines were broke.
all there was, was water. which i had been drinking all day.
so basically i ate stale nachos.. yummmmm?
4th period is ridiculous. the peopel are so gross. i hate it.
my teacher is so stuffy & strict its annoying.
then ofcourse my dad was late to pick me && april up today.
its bad enough he has to pick me up but he can atleast be on time
i need to seriously find a ride home okay lol.
i cant wait to get a fucking parking pass. seriously.

because of my horrible day, i then took it all out on bryan.
its like everyone just annoys me && pisses me off
&& because hes basically the only person i talk to
i take it all out on him, even though he did piss me off today.

nothing today went right. i wanted to just cry my eyes out.
but for whatever reason i didnt. which is suprising.

i am still starving.
&& i need to go get school supplies.

comment && let me know that im not the only one
who had a shitty first day of school.
thanks lovers.

beecause iiiii gotta get outta here..

Fri, 05 Aug 2005 15:02:51 GMT

i havent updated in like a week
because i have been keeping myself pretty busy

well theres only like.. 3 days till school
part of me is excited to see everyone
and then the other half is not excited at all
but its whatever. i got some tiiight new clothes
so atleast i can finally wear those geez

bryan is finally back from alabama
he was gone for a WEEK this time
i wanted to kill myself seriously
but they lost the tournament sooooo
that means they arent going to fuckin OHIO
thank the lord above me. i would have had a heart attack.
but yeah now he is back and everything is awesome with us

i've been hanging out with paige alot
because i love her && shes my bestest friend
we do everything together seriously its great
its good because i can actually trust her
shes genuinely a good person & i love that about her
were going today to my hairplace to get our hair did
im getting HILIGHTS. bleach blonde hilights
&& its gonna be sooo awesome
because i decided i hate my hair brown.
then i gotta go with bryan to the mall
&& then im hanging out with him during the night time.

so yeah my work completely owns me.
and let me just say i DONT like it.
today is my only day off and it sucks
saturday i work 2-close & sunday 11-6
THATS THE WHOLE TIME THE MALL IS OPEN.
dont get me wrong, i love working there
but the hours are a little crazy for me
i keep trying to tell myself wait till you get paid
then it will all be worth it but its KILLING me lol

oh yeah we had an o7 sleepover the other day
it was so fuckin funny & fun. had some good girl talk.
and we all got HOOTERS to eat (well me & paige went earlier)

well im gonna go because i dont know what else to write except..

this is our cake. it fell apart in the making of it. but its still HOT. oh SEVEN oh SHIT.

i love herrrr duh.

i was riding my cool ass bike before the girls got there.

we are so kute. in our kute ass polos.

amber will get mad i put this, because it looks as if she is exposing her private. but shes doing it in every picture so i have to put some on.

paige looks like she is on CRACK.

yeah niggah. we cool.

yeah yeah we sweet.

if you dont give a fuck put yah middle finger up :o)

Fri, 29 Jul 2005 22:43:16 GMT

well paige backed out on me today
and we didnt go shopping because
she hadddddddd to hang out with adan
boooooooooo.

so i went to the mall all by my lonesome
saw freaking like EVERYONE.
bryan akers taylor fries sam risa ali p.. etc..
oh yeah then i saw paige && adan. that pissed me off.
got a new black belt && some stuff from AE
&& i got bryan a nice polo shirt for when he comes back
i keep buying him all this stuff because
1.i love him 2.i love dressing him 3.i love him looking nice
i should prolly stop spending my money on him though
and i got some friggin black rainbows FINALLY
since some bitch STOLE my BRAND NEW old ones.
talked to ali p && her momma for a while i love them :o)

yeah i work basically all weekend which is SO SHITTY
but thats okay because it spose to rain thank GOD!
maybe i'll even get off early.. probablly not though

im so bored so im just.. randomnly writing in this thing
oh yeah, i cant decide if i should dye my hair back blonde
or just leave it brown.. comment and let me know
even if you dont have livejournal, still comment.

omgosh and let me just say i was THOROUGLY pissed this morning
when i was getting ready & realized i was out of eyeliner
that is like the one thing of makeup i wear EVERYDAY
i felt so naked with out it all day. ah.

okay i think im done, but heres another survey.
for all you bored children out there.

Erase my answers & put in your own. THEN REPOST.

1. What is your middle name? michelle
2. What color and kind of underwear are you wearing now? hot pink from vic secrets
3. What are you listening to right now? ShE gEt It FrOm HeR mOmmA!
4. What are the last 2 digits in your phone number? 03
5. What was the last thing you ate? chik fila
6. If you were a crayon what color would you be? tickle me pink
7. How is the weather right now? rainy & frizzy
8. Who was the last person you talked to on the phone? bryan
9. The first thing you notice about the opposite sex? their face
10. Favorite type of Food? mexican
11. Do you drink? yeah
12. Do you smoke? who wants to knoooo
13. Ever get so drunk you dont remember what you did? hahah yeah unfortunetly
14. Hair color? brown
15. Eye color: blue
16. Do you wear contacts? nope
17. Single? obviously not
18. Favorite Month? december, its cold, christmas break, & christmas & newyears. cant beat that.
19. Have you ever cried for no reason? yeah, because im a drama queen
20. Last Movie you Watched? sixteen candles
21. Favorite Day of the Year? march 1, my birthday :o)
22. Are you too shy to ask someone out? no, sometimes when me & bryan fight i will be like WERE DONE fuck you. and he'll be like take it back erica. and then i'll take it back. and he makes me ask him out lol.. dont ask were weird
24. Hugs or Kisses? kisses
25. chocolate or Vanilla? vanilla
26.Do you want your friends to respond? it doesnt really matter
27. Who is most likely to respond? ashleigh?
28. Who is least likely to respond? fuck if i know
29. What books are you reading? i aint readin no damn books negro please
30. Piercings? belly
31. Fav. Movie? sandlot or the notebook
32. Fav. baseball Team? atlanta braves because of bryan
34. Any pets? my puppy, baylee. && my cat, prince

35. A.I.M.= xv0lc0mbl0ndex
36. Butter, Plain or Salted popcorn? butter && salt
37. dogs or cats? dogs
38. Favorite Flower? hot pink roses
44. Have you ever fired a gun? a water gun.
45. Do you like to travel by plane? yeah. love it

46. Right-handed or Left-handed? right
48. How many pillows do you sleep with? 2
49. Are you missing someone? duh bryan
50. who do you think is gorgeous? paris hilton

im a spoiled brat && i gotta admit, i love it :o)

Fri, 29 Jul 2005 03:40:29 GMT

i've been doing some crucial ass school shopping
i have spent so much $$$
spending money makes me feel really good
and i dont think thats a good thing either
i feel carefree && extremely happy
i really hope bryan becomes like..
a major league baseball player when hes older
so i can go shopping all day long lol
my dad asked me the other day what i would say
if bryan asked me to marry him, when i turn 18
i gotta admit, i said yes. my dad just smiled.
which was really hard to understand but w/e.

funny story, here we go
this girl who remains annonymous
has been taking all my shit
of my profile, she copied my myspace COMPLETELY
and my entries in my livejournal
and i confronted her
and she freaks out and makes up all these lies
it was the funniest thing ever. seriously. hahah

did more shopping today at the outlet in st.aug
with my fave.dooley bug & lauren & the mommy
got this kute little coach purse for cheap
and some polo's from ralph lauren that im OBSESSED with
and this cute ass purse from banana
i was bargain shopping today i got everything cheap
i was incredibly proud of myself :o)

well orientation is in like.. 3 days
im excited to see everyone yah know

speaking of seeing people
bryan is out of town for baseball YET AGAIN
hopefully, he's not gone THAT LONG this time
if they lose theyre outta the tourny
EVERYONE SAY A PRAYER (for them to lose ofcourse) lol

thats all im done bye.

bold everything that applies to you.

I am currently being/have been abused
I'm an orphan
I love photography
I'm passionate about music
I've been called a stud before
I've cheated on my girlfriend (boyfriend)
Someone I know died in a car crash
I live with a stepparent
I have a younger sister
Guys/girls always seem to like me
I'm bipolar (not really, but sometimes i really think i am lol)
I've gotten a girl pregnant
I've stolen a car
I've tried seeing a stripper
I've done drugs before
I've been considered a goth
I've been considered a rocker
I play the keyboard
One of my parents is gay
I've been called a prude before
My boyfriend cheated on me (before)
I've been considered a punk
I do/have cut myself
I love filming
I've gotten a crush on someone I found out was gay
One of my parents is an alcoholic
One of my parents is fighting in the war
I've gambled
I am/was a cheerleader
I've been raped
My brother's gay
I've dated a student teacher/teacher before
I play the guitar
I'm popular
I've been called a bully
I skateboard
I play basketball
I do or have had a prejudice against gays and lesbians
I've tried alcohol to solve my problems
I'm obsessed with my car
I play basketball
I've had surgery
My parents are really rich and never home
I've had a really bad breakup with a boyfriend/girlfriend of many years (well, me & bryans first breakup)
I've been involved in a shooting
I am/have been in a wheelchair
I'm gay
A total stranger has beaten me up
I'm school president
I'm dating an older guy/girl
I hate bees
I've pretended to like something that a crush liked
My mom had a teen pregnancy
I have a single parent
My mom has dated my teacher
I've helped out a friend who was getting abused
I've gotten an online boyfriend
I've met my online boyfriend and he tried to/did assault me
I know someone who has had cancer
I know someone who has survived cancer
My best friend and I had a HUGE fight and now we don't talk to each other
I've given a blowjob (not proud of it- but hey. whatever.)
Someone in my family is mentally retarded
Someone in my family has done drugs
I live with a sibling/ they live ing the same house w/ me
I've helped a friend who was getting abused
One of my parents is/was alcoholic
I've fought with someone and ended up blinding/deafening/breaking a bone of theirs
I've stopped someone from doing drugs
My best friend and I had a HUGE fight and now we don't talk to each other
I've been called a slut (because i kissed someones ex bf, omg shoot me.)
I am/was a cheerleader
I've gotten pregnant
I've gotten an abortion
I've dated someone who I knew had a girlfriend already
I ice-skate
I've helped a friend who was going to be assaulted
I've been called a dork
I love computers
I've helped a friend who was going to be assaulted
My parents have gotten a divorce
I've been caught looking at porn by my parents
I've wanted to try drugs
I've tried seeing a stripper
I've been called a class clown
I've been caught looking at porn by my parents
I've helped a friend who was going to be assaulted
I've tried seeing a stripper
I've told a girl I'm gay just so I didn't have to go out with her
I've been called a nerd
I've been called a perfectionist
I'm an editor of my school's newspaper
I have a learning disability
I have a hot tub
My dad's too overprotective
A boy has told me he's gay just so he didn't have to go out with me

that was interesting lol...

iiiiiiiiii iiiiiiii gotta get outta here..

Mon, 25 Jul 2005 01:17:27 GMT

bascically i work everyday.
i never thought of myself as someone
who's life was consumed by work.
i mean thats just NOT ME okay.

and at night i hang out with either bryan
or go on dates w/paige (what can i say? lol.)

my backpack still has yet to arrive
im getting a little pissed
but im excited, i got some tiiiii ass jeans today
3 pairs from aber & 2 from hollister
and then i get to go school shopping like wednesday

bryan is going out of town AGAIN.
this time he's going to fuckin alabama.
way the hell away from jacksonville.
he leaves wednesday & depending on if they lose/win
they could be gone 1 day to 6 days

oh well, i got shit to do before school anyways
1. go school shopping
2. get a fucking crucial ass tan
3. hilight my hair (thats right, im going back blonde)
4. pay off my fucking car FINALLY.
5. go to orientation
6. get my windows tinted
and im shure like 406832462 other things
that my mind cant think of right this moment

anyways,i have a really bad headache right now
and im tired of typing but i will do this little..
surveyish thing. so here you go.

I am bisexual or homosexual.
I've consumed alcohol.
I've run away from home.
I have lied to my parents about where I am.
I don't like Bush because he is dumb.
I don't like Bush with my own reasons to back it up.
I am for Bush.
I listen to political music.
I collect comic books. (i used to collect archie comics lol)
I am shorter than 5'5.
I think I'm ugly, even sometimes.
I shut others out when I'm depressed.
I open up to others easily.
I am keeping a secret from the world.
I watch the news.
I own over 5 rap CDs.
I own an iPod or MP3.
I own multiple designer purses, costing over $100 a piece.
I own something from Hot Topic.
I own something from Pac Sun.
I own something from The Gap.
I own something I got on e-bay.
I love Disney Movies.
I am a sucker for haireyes.
I don't kill bugs.
I curse regularly.
I paid for that cell phone ring. (well, my dad did.)
I am a sports fanatic.
I have "x"s in my screen name.
I've slipped out an "lol" in a real conversation.
I love Spam.
I bake well.
I would wear pajamas to school.
I own something from Abercrombie.
I have a job. (wow never thought i would be able to say that)

I love Martha Stewart.
I am in love with love.
I am guilty of tYpInG lIkE tHiS.
I am self conscious.
I like to laugh.
I smoke a pack a day.
I loved Liked Perks of Being a Wallflower.
I loved Liked Go Ask Alice.
I have cough drops when I'm not sick.
I can't swallow pills.
I can swallow about 5 pills at a time no problem.
I eat fast food weekly.
I have many scars.
I believe in ghosts
I can't sleep if there is a spider in the room.
I am really ticklish.
I see a therapist.
I take anti-depressants.
I love white chocolate.
I bite my nails.
I am comfortable with being me.
I play video games.(occasionally)
I'm single.
I'm in a relationship.
I'M MARRIED.
Gotten lost in your city.
Saw a shooting star.
Wished on a shooting star.
Saw a meteor shower.
I had a serious surgery.
Gone out in public in your pajamas. (and embarrased my mom lol)
I have kissed a stranger.
Hugged a stranger.
Been in a fist fight.
Been arrested.
Laughed and had milk or another drink come out of your nose.
Pushed all the buttons on an elevator.
Made out in an elevator.
Swore at your parents.
Kicked a guy where it hurts.
Been close to love.
Been to a casino.
Been skydiving.
Broken a bone.
Skipped school.
Saw a therapist.
Played spin the bottle.
Gotten stitches.
Drank a whole gallon of milk in one hour.
Bitten someone.
Been to Niagara Falls.
Gotten the chicken pox.
Kissed a member of the same sex.
Crashed into a friend's car.
Been to Japan.
Ridden in a taxi.
Shoplifted.
Been fired.
Ever had a crush on someone of the same sex.
Had feelings for someone who didnt have them back.
Stole something from your job.
Gone on a blind date.
Lied to a friend.
Had a crush on a teacher.
Celebrated Mardi Gras in New Orleans.
Been to Europe.
Slept with a co-worker.
Been married.
Gotten divorced.
Had children.
Saw someone dying.
Been to Africa.
Driven over 400 miles in one day.
Been to Canada.
Been to Mexico.
Been on a plane.
Seen the Rocky Horror Picture Show.
Thrown up in a bar (try CAR instead of bar)
Eaten Sushi.
Been snowboarding.
Been Skiing. (water skiing that is)
Met someone in person from the internet.
Been to a moto cross show.
Lost a child.
Gone to college.
Graduated college.
Done hard drugs.
Taken painkillers.
Had someone cheat on you.

Miss someone right now.
Taken painkillers when you didn't need them.
Smoked weed.
Snorted cocaine.
Ate shrooms.
Popped E.
Inhailed Nitrous.
Been in love.
Cheated in a relationship.
Woke up crying.
Cried yourself to sleep.
Peed from laughing.
Had sex.
Had sex in a car.
Had sex in public.
Had sex in the shower.
Had sex in a sibling's bed.
Had sex in a (Friends) parent's bed.
Read the answers of the person who sent this to you.
My answers are totally honest.

baby blues eyes, your head on my shoulder..

Tue, 19 Jul 2005 04:35:40 GMT

okay first of all, i grounded for those pics i put on my last update
and so my dad made me take them off.. i dont care whatever
it was pretty embarrassing to have that ugly dude with us in them

a n y w h o o o o

the past week has been really rough
i got grounded because of the pictures
which made my dad think im an "alcoholic/drug abuser"
he wanted to send me back to UC but i flipped a shit
theres no way im switching schools again
i came to mandarin FOR bryan & im DEFINETLY not leaving
and on top of all of that, bryans been out of town
yep, at another flippin baseball tournament
im mad that he has to go out of town AGAIN buttttt
he pitched the championship game w/14 strikeouts
and only gave up 2 hits. so im pretty proud, thats my boy.
i wish i could have been there to see though :o(
when he's out of town he's with "the boys" and he hardly talks to me
i guess i understand where he's coming from in certain aspects
all week ive been feeling like he doesnt like me as much anymore
but then we hung out today after not seeing eachother for 8 days
and everything was so perfect. it was such a relief you have no idea
we just laid there and talked and flirted with eachother
and cuddled and i did his laundry lol
but i am sad because since they won that game now they go to ALABAMA
and he'll be gone for like.. 4 days AGAINNNNNNNN
baseball is like a bad dream that wont go away i swear.
sorry if im talking about bryan, its the only thing on my mind

ended up going to the beach with doo- today for like 3 hours
my face is burnt, but nothing else!&@$^ WTFFFFF
i am definetly not going BACK to school paler than i left okay
saw kylie brooke nicole/kendra & deanna

i dont work wednesday until 5 oclock
so lets hit up the beach my niggahs.
holler atcha girllll <3

ps 3 WEEKS TILL SCHOOL STARTS
(drum roll)LET THE DRAMA BEGIN
hahahha

♥ ♥ ♥ ♥ ♥ ♥ ♥

we so craaaazy.

Thu, 14 Jul 2005 02:23:53 GMT

me & nikole before going out..

us & chewbaka!

kristen.. getting a little affectionate with me.

hahahha hmm okay.. this is interesting.

thats all folks.

.. dont worry about a thing

Wed, 13 Jul 2005 21:15:34 GMT

i updated this especially for little miss samantha kelly lol.
i've been really busy what can i say? anyways..

the last two nights i hung out with sam kristen heath & chelsea & ash
we went over to scotts & got fucking drunk & it was so fun
and then we all went over to jenks house & then publix
went to sams house, went to my house, went to heathers, went to kristens
we spent the first night @ heathers & the second at kristens
went to my first day of work today, it was good i guess.
incase yall didnt know, im working at limited too @ the new mall.
yeah i know WAHHHHH HOOOOOO. not. lol

i have another orientation for work tomm.
and then i raelly start working.. saturday i think
"welcome to the realworld"

bryans going out of town YET AGAIN (growls)
i fucking hate him going/being out of town
i dont like to not know what he's doing yah know
the earliest he could be back is saturday
and the latest is monday..
i hate to say it, i know its mean, but i hope they lose.

im fixing to go to my mothers house
hopefully we can go do some shopping
i need to get chelsea a birthday present

i'll have pictures later tonight. love.

really fuuuuckin bored.

Thu, 07 Jul 2005 13:05:26 GMT

THE FIRST...
First best friend: Morgan
First car: Black Jetta
First real kiss: 8th grade
First real break-up: mmm.. 9th grade?
First screen name: a&fcutie..sumthin
First album you bought: spicegirls?
First funeral: my granddaddy's
First pet: my poodle sugar
First piercing: Ears
First credit card: yeah.. i havent got to that yet
First true love: bryannn

THE LAST TIME...
Last cigarette: uh, yesterday
Last car ride: to work
Last kiss: july 4th (bryan's been out of town)
Last library book checked out: the tara lapinksi one from the 4th grade that i still have
Last movie seen: bring it on again
Last beverage drank: sprite
Last food consumed: chikfila
Last phone call: erica
Last time showered: last night
Last shoes worn: rainbows
Last CD played: yellowcard
Last item bought: mcdonalds yesterday
Last annoyance: my stepdad
Last disappointment: bryan
Last time wanting to die: earlier on in the school year
Last shirt worn: this abercrombie tee
Last word you said: yeah
Last song you sang: you & me- lifehouse
What color socks are you wearing? im not wearing any..
What color underwear are you wearing?: pink
What's under your bed?: nothing
What time did you wake up today? liek 7:30 (had to go to work

CURRENT THINGS...
Current music: my cell phone ringing-- cant touch this!
Current taste: chikfila (breakfast)
Current desktop wallpaper: me ash & cort lol
Current book: i dont really do reading
Current color of toenails: pink
Current time-wasting wish: that bryan would come back from uf because i miss him like absolute crazy
Current hate: that im at work

One or the Other:
1. Black or white? white
2. Boxers or briefs? boxers
3. Coke or Pepsi? pepsi
4. Salt or pepper? salt
5. Sweet or sour? sweet
6. Vanilla or chocolate? vanilla
7. Short or long? long
8. Cheap or expensive? either. depends on what it is.
9. Firm or soft? soft
10. Hot or cold? hot

My favorite...
1. Color is: aqua or yellow
2. Song is: Listen to your heart, you & me, REAL big
3. Scent is: burberry brit (that bryan got me before he left)
4. Alcoholic beverage is: bud light. i love beer.

Five things you ate in the last 24 hours:

1:magnolia chicken salad, breadsticks, okra, chikfila, barbeque chips

im at work & i DONT WANT TO BE
i hope i get to hang out with cort today
i hope i hope i hope
bryan and i got in a huge fight last night
i hate fighting with him when he's so far away
i dont know what i should do about him
sometimes i think i should just let him go
but i know it will hurt me even more to be away from him
cant live with him, cant live without him i gues :o/
boys are so complicated i swearrrrrrrr
i just wanna hold him & kiss him & tell him i love him
but i guess i wont even be able to do that for a while
he gets back friday & has a baseball tourney all weekend
shitty for me riiight. well yeah it is.

let the good times roll...

Wed, 06 Jul 2005 18:11:28 GMT

heyyyyyy bitches kay so im pretty much mad at bryan
because he is a little baseball playing fuck face
he hasnt called from camp & it pisses me off
not like i havent been having fun because i defintely have
oh well, life goes on right. RIIIIIGHT KAY.

spent july 4th with bryan, went to the fireworks @ the beach
and ofcourse we were fighting the whole time
because he was driving MY car and i was afraid he was going to wreck it
and then we couldnt find a place to park
and i was hungry & pissed cause my hair was frizzing
but when the fireworks started we were fine & watched them in the rain
(not exactly how i pictured it but whhhhhhatever okay)

kristen & ash picked me up tuesday & we went to the mall
then came back to kristens & laid out & got in the pool
then got ready & picked danielle up from work, got some goods too :o)
went to chuckycheese which is DEFINETLY NOT as fun as it use to be
there was an overload of niggers working there and they were rude
also there was too many little shithead kids but the food was WAY good
left there & went over to tom's house & hung out there
cort & katie came.. WOWW WEE! hahah so im glad i got to see cort
then erin called & we decided to go over to justiani's (sp?)
ahhh it was so fun lol.. charles picked danielle up :o(
we left came back to ash's & thenwent on a walk to kasia's
came back here & i passed out watching mean girls

today we just got some mcdonalds
and sat around watching movies waa hoo
were crazy what can i say lol
going to my moms tonight yipee
i think were gonna go see a movie

this is us BEFORE we went out

and this is us AFTER...

wooah a little boob grabbage there..

i love us hahahha woowwww weeeeeeeee x 89467892752

STOP it's the mother fuckkkin remix.

Wed, 29 Jun 2005 04:10:56 GMT

ahhhhhh i dont know why i write in here i dont even like it
kay so i havent updated in a week so let me reflect..

saturday went out to dinner w/the rents & bryan
at this REALLY nice restaurant, my dad & bryan got DUCK.
it was the grossest thing ever okay.
then we went and saw bewitched which suckkkked.
came home & went to the tennis courts ;o)

sunday, lauren picked me up
we went to her house & got ready
i drove her car to target to get candy
ran into ali pitt's & her momma ♥
then met laura,brooke,amy up at the movies
saw bewitched, AGAIN. i wanted to shoot myself.
then met kellyn up at the gasstation to ride together
and then bryan came up there to see me :o)
then went to this guy jeremy's which was fun
then went to krispy kreme @ like 1 & got free shit

monday we slept till like 1ish.
then got lunch at la nopalera yumm.
then went running errands then came home
paige came over & we went to michaels
& i made a shadowbox with memories from this year
then we watched hitch which was gay..

today went to the mall & runnin errands
then stopped by adan's, then went to bryans
then went out to dinner @ carrabas :o)
came home & went to michaels again & made a collage

well, im spose to be going bowling with bryan tomm.
and then out to lunch/dinner or whatever.
i havent hung out with him in a while, i miss him :o(

ps my dad stresses me out really bad
and pisses me off really bad okay okay okay
end of story.

no ♥ by the way. i hate you. uhhhhhh.

/

girl gimme thaaaaaaaat

Thu, 23 Jun 2005 19:18:55 GMT

this week has been pretty tiiiight yo
monday went & got lunch with bryan @ panera
then came home & packed & lauren,brooke, & laura picked me up
went to laurens & changed clothes & shiiiit
then went back over to brookes & all the girls were there
(nicole,sara,lauren,kellyn,amy,brooke,tap,laura,& me)
went on a scavenger hunt (my team was me laura kellyn & lauren)
we had to do the CRAZIEST shit. it was sucha blast :o)
we finally fell asleep around 4

then tuesday went back to laurens house @ 11
bryan picked me up & we went & got breakfast @ village inn
then washed our cars haha. then we just hung out
made some good ass dinner & we made a cake which was so good

wednesday morning @ freakin 630 i woke up & got ready
kellyn & amy picked me up & we met everyone at mcdonalds
then we started on our roadtrip w/me nicole kellyn & amy
and about 15 more people that graduated already
so yeah i was the youngest one there lol ohh well
we got SO WASTED at like 9am it was so fun
we finally got to the itchnetucknee & i slept the whole way down
i was fucking PASSED OUT. then we got lost trying to leave
finally got home around 7ish. watched a lifetime movie & passed out

today has been shitty though
all i did was layout & my dog ate my chapstick
im going to my moms tonight & i think so is bryan
kay im out.

ps i hope my little cortney is doing good
the poor little dear got her wisdom teeth out :o(

hmm whats in those cups ? lol.

pouuuuuuuur some sugahhh on meee ♥

Sat, 18 Jun 2005 04:27:16 GMT

yesterday i went to the mall with bryan
then went to cortneys, got some dinner @ la nopalera?
then went to bryans game up @ msa
came home & watched clueless, which..
i think i finally understand all the perverted jokes now.
then me & cort woke up & hung out & shiii
then bryan picked me up & we went to san marco
to buy my dad a fathers day present
then went to bonos & got dinner then to my sisters game
tried some new on the way home which was really cool kinda lol
came home & bryan LOCKED HIS KEYS IN THE CAR
so him & my dad broke in through the window with a hanger
and after 40 minutes finally hit the unlock button
then watched tv & packed for ambers tommorow

ahhh paige is picking me up tomm. @ 10am
then were headin to the bEaChHoUse for the night.
crunkness? im thinking.. YESSSSSSSSS.

♥ ♥ ♥ ♥ ♥ ♥

leave a message. bitch.

and when she gets mad, you best leave her alone.

Wed, 15 Jun 2005 03:09:43 GMT

i feel like writing so here i go..

♥sunday ♥
i brought bryan an icee
and hung out with paige & ashleigh
went swimming & watched boogeyman
♥ monday ♥
paige left & cort came over
got crunnnnnnnnnnnk. cause we sweet.
then bryan came over & they left
went to my little sisters softball tourney
then came home & went in the hottub
♥ tuesday ♥
i had to workkkk. gayyyy.
and i was really rudely interupted by
a certain person who thinks im "out to get them"
i use to think my parents were out to get me
i guess everyone goes through that stage hmm..
went to the op mall to get a tag made for my car
it fittin' to be tiight yo.
then came home & got in a huge fight with bryan AGAIN
because basically he is a prick around brandon and yeah
so then me & cort were just gonna go get some dinner
but then bryan told me he was on his way to my house
so we met her & conrad up at steak&shHhake and ate
then me & bry went & saw mr&mrs.smith which was okay
we cuddled the whole time & ofcourse he got me UN-mad at him like always
then he took me for a suprise ride to starbucksss :o)
we came home & talked about stuff cause we needed too for serious
then watched along came polly.

♥ i have to work tommorow. ♥
and then going out to dinner w.my mom
and then back to her house

i realized today that sometimes i just need to relax
and not worry about things so much, cause i do..
i stress over every little thing and it annoys me
i feel like nothing is ever right and i can almost always
find something to be mad about and its just really annoying
im so incredibly pessimistic it drives me insane

oh yeah, i need a job. bad. really bad. super bad.
wahhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhh im such a whiner.

a serious need for bonding & crunknessss

Sun, 12 Jun 2005 23:35:39 GMT

ATTENTION JUNIOR LADIES:

SLEEPOVER @ MY CASA

JUNE 15 (THIS WEDNESDAY)

BRING SOME ALCHY &&&

YOUR WONDERFUL.. DRAMA FREE SELF

& OFCOURSE, A BIKINI!

I'LL SEE YOUR FINE SELF THERE!

♥ ♥ ♥

fags. you are all fagggggggggggs. go kick yourself in the face. ♥

Sun, 12 Jun 2005 06:09:07 GMT

today was beyond randomn. seriously it was.
first of all, woke up thinking that i was going to bryan's
baseball game w/cort but it was raining? so it was cancelled
so ended up going with my fam to dave&busters. (like i said, RANDOM)
bryan met us up there & made me sooooooooooooo happy :o)
we played some games, he killed me at almost everyone
except for the horse race. i own that game okkkkkkkkkkkkay.
then we went to my little sisters softball game
bryan had to pour a bag of doritos down my shorts
so that pissed me off even more. i dont know what motivated him to do that.
then went to adventure landing & played more games & rode go-karts
came home, got in the pool for a little then hung out for a while
watched laila ali & mike tyson fight. it was pretty shweet.

i realized today, that i really think bryan is a little shit head
but you know what, im totally completely in love with that shit head.
he is hilarious. he makes me smile,laugh,etc..
i know its wishful thinking, but i hope we stay together <b>forever<b> ♥

hang time w/cort & possibly ash tomm?
& double date @ night? oh the possibilities.

ps this song came in the car today
& im pretty shure this is exactly what bryan thinks of me

She's sun and rain, she's fire and ice
A little crazy but it's nice
And when she gets mad, you best leave her alone
'cause she'll rage just like a river
Then she'll beg you to forgive her
She's every woman that i've ever known.
She's so new york and then l.a.
And every town along the way
She's every place that i've never been
She's makin love on rainy nights
She's a stroll through christmas lights
And she's everything i want to do again.
She's anything but typical
She's so unpredictable
Oh but even at her worst it ain't that bad
She's as real as real can be
And she's every fantasy
Lord she's every lover that i've ever had
And she's every lover that i've never had

call up jazziii tell her we got another hittttt hittttt hittttttt . .

Sat, 11 Jun 2005 03:37:20 GMT

basically, the past few days i dont really remember.
hung out with cort & the boys (bry & rat) quite a bit
plus, been working at my dads office until i get a job

me and bryan have been crucially fighting
i dont know what my problem has been lately
i get pissed off at everything & go PSCYHO.
literally. i do. i seriously think i have a problem.
i seriously think he is driving me crazy.

had people over last night to watch the mtv movie awards
didnt realy watch it. we just played games and shiiit.
me & cort got kiiiiiiilled in foozeball.
then we rode bikes to panera this morning.
then i went back to bed cause bryan put me in a bad mood
then lauren came over to chill
then went out to dinner w.my rents

tomm. bryans baseball game i think?
the possibilities are endless.. woo hoo

ps i love girls who take me off their friends list
because their dumb shit boyfriends makes up some bullshit
why would anyone enjoy reading about your period & sexlife anyway?
hah. go make some REAL friends sweetheart.

♥ ♥ ♥

100 Question Survey -- fill it out and repost

___Basic Info___

1. Name: erica michelle
2. Your Nick Names: rica, ri, erricah, errcuh, etc..
3. Your Birthday: march 1
4. Place of Birth: jville fla
5. Zodiac Sign: pisces
6. Male or Female: Female
8. Grade: going to be a *junior*
9. Occupation: being a 16 year old girl
10. Residence: A house?
11. Screen Name: xv0lc0mbl0ndex

___Your Appearance___

12. Hair Color: BRUNETTE.
13. Hair Long or Short: Medium.
14. Eye Color: blue.
15. how do ur nails look: acrylic, with french.
16. Height: 5'4ish
17. Do you have a crush on someone?: i dont do crushes anymore
18. Do u like yourself: i rock okay.
19. Braces?: no way jose
20. Think your hott: i dont know.
21. Piercings: 2
22. Tattoo: not yet [want a little star on my hip]
23. Righty or Lefty: righty.

___Your 'Firsts'___

24. First best friend(s): claudia
27. First Award: hell if i know
28. First Sport You Joined: teeball. i quit after one practice.
29. First pet: a poodle named sugar
31. First Kiss: bryan.
32. First Love: bryan.

___ Favorites___

33. Movie(s): sixteen candles, friday, finding nemo, the incredibles..
34. TV Show(s): Oc, laguna, making the band 3
35. Color(s): peach turquoise lime and black
36. Bands: fftl is right now
37. Song: collide- howie day
38. Food; Italian
39. Drink: starbucks :o)
40. Candy: twix
41. Sport To Play: mm.. volleyball even though i suckxcore
42. Favorite sport To Watch: baseball & basketball
43. Brand Of Clothing: abercrombie. classic hotness.
44. Stores: a&f, hco, ae, forever 21
45. School Subject: I hate school.
46. Animal: dolphins
47. Book: the Gossip Girls series
48. Magazines: cosmo

___Currently___
49. Eating: fruit
50. Drinking: water
51. Talking to: cortney
52. Online: yess..im online?
53. Listening to: coldplays new album
54. Thinking About: whether or not i feel like going to bryans game tomm.
55. wanting to: see bryan :o(
56. Watching: obviously the computer screen.
57. Wearing: soffees & a tanktop
58. Want Kids? mm shure.
59. Want to Get Married? if i find the right person, sure.
60. Careers in Mind: thats a good question.

____Opposite Sex____
61. Nice: personality & face
62. Good kisser, or good with the hand: both are usually a plus.
63. Nice body, or interesting conversations: like i said, both are a plus.
64. Nice Clothes or Nice Car: nice clothes & decent car
65. Good choice in resturants or good choice in evening venues: venues. i can choose the food places lol.
66. Licker or Flicker: .. wtf?
67. Cute or Sexy: cute is sexy to me.
68. Lips or Eyes: Eyes
69. Hugs or Kisses: Kisses
70. Short or Tall: Tall!
71. Easygoing or serious: both.
72. Romantic or Spontaneous: you can be romantic & spontaneous.
73. Fatty or Skinny: i like a little meat on my guys. not fat by anymeans though.
74. Sensitive or Loud: Loud and Fun but sensitve when he needs to be
75. Hook-up or Relationship: Relationship
76. Sweet or Caring: caring
77. Trouble Maker or Hesitant One: trouble maker

___Have You Ever___

78. Kissed a Stranger: i guess you could say he was a stranger
79. Drank Alcohol: uh yeah
80. Smoked: yeah
81. Ran Away From Home: if you wanna call it that
82. Broken a Bone? Nope.
83. Got an X-ray: yep
84. Broken Someones Heart: doubt it.
85. Broke Up With Someone: Yes.
86. Turned Someone Down: .Yes.
87. Cried When Someone Died: yes
88. Cried At School: i basically have cried everywhere.

___Do You Believe In___

89. God: yes
90. Miracles: yes
91. Love At First Sight: yes
92. Ghosts: i seriously doubt it
93. Aliens: no
94. Soul Mates: yes
95. Heaven: yes
96. Hell: yes.
97. Waiting till marriage for sex: obviously not.
98. Kissing on The First Date: sure if you like them enough
99. Horoscopes:no

___Answer Truthfully___
100. Is There Someone You Want But You Know You Can't Have: no.

brunettes are so hot right now.. -a&f

Tue, 07 Jun 2005 14:19:10 GMT

okay so like.. saturday? i dono yeah saturday
me & cort hung out, she picked me up.. we went to the mall
then to bonos & then to our boys's game..
we were bored out of our MOTHER TRUCKIN MINDS!
then hung out at msa for a while, ajs car wouldnt start..

then sunday um, bryan came over i think
&& we hung out & shit, got arbys :o) mmmmm..
then got starbucks later & got in the hottub
then he left & i was pretty bored

today took the little munchkins to camp
then came home got ready & went to my hair appt
got it dyeddd BROWN, its freaking hot shit
then came home got ready & went to dinner w/ashleigh & cort
went to the mall for a bit, got some beer
then went up to some park & met up with bryan & conrad
drank a little bit & then cort had to leave
so me bryan & conrad went up to msa to hang i guess
saw alot of people &&& shiiiiit
then came back to my house, bryan gave him a tour & shit

today me & cort are gonna lay out & get fucked up
then boys baseball game.. AGAIN.
were such losers. i love us.

pimp faaa sho'

um this is huge & i dont know why..

this is my favorite <33

i look smart there.

and i look like im really smart here lol

i love stopping at red lights to take pictures..

hotties.

like what im looking for, theres gotta be something more

Fri, 03 Jun 2005 17:47:28 GMT

i've been babysitting all week basically
but thats okay cause i've made alot of $$$
paige came & hung out wednesday & we got icecream :o)
then went over to bryans house & then out to dinner
@ outback w.his family for his birthday
then came back to my house to hang out

hung out with fish all day yesterday
went out to eat @ carrabas & shiiit
then went to the new mall & target & shiiit
was gonna get some dye & dye my hair dark brown
but im just so scared of how it will turn out
didnt go to bryans game or his brothers house
... due to crucial fighting
so basically the night S U C K E D

doing ALOT of cleaning today cause i feel like it
then hanging out with bryan later i guess
i want to go to chucky cheese :o/
will someone pllllllease go with me?

byeeeeeeeeeeeeeee fags.

dem boyzzz in the hood sell anything for craccCck

Mon, 30 May 2005 04:16:02 GMT

lauren picked me up saturday
went & got lunch w/brooke which was SO good
then went & saw our bf's @ work ((wonderful albertsons))
then went bathing suit shopping @ our lil secret spot
came home, rented Taxi which was lammmmeee
then bryan came over & hung out while we got ready
went & got dinner @ sonnys & then went to the movie
met dave there, and saw the funniest movie ever, the longest yard
then were gonna go to jon flip's house but we were all fighting
but then me & bryan made up eventually & we had amazing flexxxx

today we woke up and went & washed her car
then came home, took a little nap then bryan came to get me
went back to his house & took yet, another nap
then went to the new mall to look for him something for his bday
then came home ate dinner & then got some icecream
watched meet the fockers & then just hung out

anyways, i finally got pictures back from kenny chesney and shiii

me fish & amyy

me & kellyn

half my face + amy

lauren & kellyn

laura and kellyn

the girls.. gorgeousss <3

brooke & laura

the girls @ chilis

look at those fine ass hoes

omfg omfg gross picture of me + lauren

im betting you know who those grls are..

skanks @ the beach

yet again, skanks..

the skanks continue..

me and the little brother

clearly, he is the coolest

thats my daddy.

saved the best for last <333 my baybeeee :o)